Week 2

So thank God, I am documentarian.

We agreed that that works best for whoever chooses editor.

Gives that person a break.

I am waiting for the footage to load in to my computer.

I usually watch it as it loads, but there aren't any breaks in it. I guess the camera wasn't shut off a lot between takes, so it's one long shot.  So, I will watch it when I can stop and cut it so create my clip library.

The little bit I watched had some major sound stuff.

Just LOTS of background noise.

That is going to be challenging.

But, I know we can create something beautiful with it.

Tonight was awesome.

Andy Huang came in and he showed us his short.  WOW.  It was so incredible.

I came home and was telling Duffy that the incredible thing for me in this process, is that I am learning so much about myself.

I have always felt that comedy was all I could do, but I am seeing all these cool ideas for movies, and they aren't funny!  They are really "artistic" and I never thought I could do that because I am not the "ohhh man, I am so deep. and so fucked up. I am an artist" But I get that I can just be me, and still be "artistic" and deep and create a story in a way that is compelling and vulnerable and moving, and funny.

The more work I do on myself, the more facets of myself I discover.

IT's like I am a dusty piece of furniture in the attic.

And I am actually doing the work to clean myself off.  And every day, I discover some new little drawer, and in that drawer are all these really cool things that I never knew were there, or that I had seen in other desks, but didn't know that I had it in mine too.

For the first time in my life I am crying on a regular basis. It's beautiful. If you aren't a cryer, I suggest it!  It's so purifying!  And by releasing all these years of pent up tears, I am finding a new sense of myself as an artist.

Tonight I was struck with the realization that I AM doing what I am supposed to be doing. 

I am supposed to tell stories.

I haven't had that knowingness for a while.

I had an idea for two short films that will go together.

I have no idea how to even start, but I have the idea, so I am going to run with it.

I also know that after this, I will shoot my sketch pilot. For sure!  And I have a team of people who can help me if they are so inspired!