Morning thoughts

Hey there-
Wednesday morning.
Listening to a yoga class.
I seva at a yoga studio - which means that I come in and work once a week for 4 hours for unlimited yoga classes.

Being here is wonderful. The energy in this space is so calming and peaceful. I have been doing my own little practice in the office. One of my favorite poses is headstand. It's so cool to be upside down. Gets the blood flowing in the opposite direction, what an amazing idea. I love Yoga. It makes my head quite down, and the connection that I feel with my body is incredible. Last week in class the teacher asked us to continue to trust and push ourselves in the poses. She asked us to be aware of when the mind tells us we can't do anymore, but the body says "yes I can" My body was always able to do more than my mind gave it credit for. I started to wonder how prevalent that is in the rest of my life. Where does my mind tell me I am not able - and in reality, I am? Everywhere. I am sure of it!
I have an idea for a trilogy of short films. And my mind says - "yeah - it's a good idea, but not really possible. You don't have the money, the time, etc" But in reality - I do. I am promising to shoot that trilogy when project reel is over.
There is a part of me that is scared that once PR is done, that I won't be able to do this anymore. So I gotta give that up!
So much fear. Everywhere. Not just me, I know! And I realize that if I break through my fear, that I can help other people do the same. Why shouldn't I create all these wacky ideas in my head? They don't all belong to me...they are floating around in the ether...so what makes me think I shouldn't do them and then let someone else grab on? The time is now - yes? Yes. I talked about that in my initial interview with Josephine. I have spent my life saying "Oh yeah, I'll shoot that or perform that or write that tomorrow...today I have to "survive". But you know what - today is yesterday's tomorrow. So yesterday I said I would do something tomorrow, but today is tomorrow, and I am still looking towards "tomorrow". So - the only time is now. Now now now.
I love that I live in Los Angeles. So grateful for this City of Angels. Living here can be very challenging. Traffic. Costs. The "industry"
But here I have really found out who I am. I am sitting in a yoga studio, being contemplative - and I study about esoteric truths. I long to be able to meditate in a way that I can eventually "transcend the mind". I respect my body and think about what I eat, what I put in it and how it moves to serve me. I eat no red meat or pork and only chicken that gets to roam free with no antibiotics! I make fruit smoothies with hemp protein. I vote for liberal politicians and can't wait for Obama to win. I believe we all have the right to be acknowledged as equals- wheter we are gay or straight or black or white or asian or latino...I wear surfer flip flops. I own a crystal necklace that enhances divine energy - and I read books by shirly maclaine about lost civilizations! I am one of those "Wacky californians" that people talk about. And I thank God that I am!
My film is about owning your truth.
And I know that many people don't have the chance to do that.
I do.
And for that I am so grateful.