Week 4

We are now in week 4 of Project Reel.

I was completely out of it tonight.

Before I left, I got all disoriented, and so I arrived completely out of sorts.

We shot my film this weekend.

Wow.

What a journey.

It definitely was a dream come true to shoot a short film that I created.  And I am extremely proud.  I was able to see the footage, and it looks really great.  There is one small scene I am going to re-shoot.  I am editing my own version of this as well, to use for myself outside of PR.

I want to bring it to a producer, and let them know I have 8-10 other episodes ready to go!  It's going to be a FUN series.

On a whim I asked a new friend of mine Ro to play my best friend.

She was hysterical!  And is a pivotal part of the other episodes I want to shoot.

I talked to her today, and she is in!

I also got to work with an old friend of mine, Chris Mur.

We go way back.

We were Universal Studios Tour Guides together about 5 years ago.

He always makes me laugh, and he certainly did that on Saturday.

I don't want to ruin the surprise for you - but he has a bit that is HYSTERICAL. He made it Hysterical.  It was just funny.  He cranked it up.

And what a blessing to have Caryl.

She played the mom character in this.

So much fun.

Branson came in tonight to talk about editing.

Perfect timing.

I just entered the footage into Final Cut Express.

When I bought myself this computer last summer, I added on final Cut.  But I haven't ever used it.  I've just relied on Imovie.  But - I figured it was time to take it up a notch.  One of my teachers Linda reminds me that risk creates expansion.  I sometimes believe that risk and change mean failure/disaster/death.  What a cheery outlook, eh?  I am changing that though - (thank you Linda!)

So - I am changing my style and jumping into the more Professional editing modes.

Branson gave us so many tips tonight, I can't wait to start in and see what I can create!

I wrote a while ago about the gap and how pronounced it is.

The gap of what I want to do vs what I "have" to do.

It is definitely challenging, and it's shifting and shaping me.

I realized today that I used to spend 90% of my time worrying about my day jobs, am I doing a good job - stressing out about what I need to do for that.  And 10% of my energy would go towards making my creative dreams come true.

That has changed since project reel.

And it's making me aware that I may have to make some major changes.

I realized today that my "day job" feels more like a "Career" and it's not a career I am inspired by.  At All.  I signed on a few months ago to do one thing, and it has evolved into something completely different.  Sales is now a big part of my job.  Uhhh - yuck.  I do not like sales.  The job is ever changing, and I feel like I can never just let it go.  I have to take it home with me.  I work out of my home, but there is no real - OK - done.  There are always the running - I gotta call him back, gotta make sure I get this booked, schedule this, etc.

Now - if the money were right, this may not be such a big deal. BUT - I'm not rolling in it.

So - I am considering finding a day job that I can detach from.

I'll keep you posted on that.

In the meantime, I am looking into film schools/programs.

I do know now, that this is the industry I am meant to be in.

And my heart swells knowing that I am right where I am supposed to be.

A year ago I went to see these 2 shaman.

They told me that they saw me in the biz, but that most of my success was going to be in the production side.  Now last year, I was a different person than I am today, and could not hear that.  But perhaps they were right!  There is a picture from Saturday of me behind the camera with Q looking over me.  IT is one of my favorite pictures I've ever seen of myself.  I look good behind the camera!  I think I can add pics to this, so I will let you see it.

I wanna learn more about directing and cinematography.

So if anyone reading this wants to create a scholarship fund for me - I will accept it with open arms and a heart of gratitude!  Just putting it out there!  You never know!

Talk soon-

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